monday music: "it's the good advice that you just didn't take"

"Alanis Morisette - Ironic (Video)"

This era Alanis Morisette has been stuck in my head for days upon weeks now. Not sure why.

Happy Monday!

running on fumes

So very exhausted.

Every time I think that I'm just about caught up, that I should be able to take a moment to stop, breathe and clean the pet hair from every single surface in my home, I realize that I am nowhere near finished with my obligations. And, at the same time that I'm silently cursing myself for repeatedly doing this, year after year, I am also thankful to have so much to do. I don't do well with too little. I also don't do well with self-imposed dealines. I need the pressure of those who aren't me.

But, I'm trying to shift that focus. As days seem to slip by with so many things left undone, I more and more want time for and with my own family. I'm trying to figure out if this is something I really want or if this is classic me who's all, "Hey grass over there, you certainly look greener than grass over here! Maybe I'll come over and check you out."

Okay, so much to contemplate right now, but absolutely no time for that contemplation to take place. Why is September melting away like a snow cone in Vegas in mid-August?

Twenty-four hours from now, I plan on being much less exhausted and much more coherent. Here's to that, at least.

peace

I don't really know what to say about yesterday's Air Race crash. Pic and I were out most of the day, unconnected from any kind of news. I didn't even know about the crash until Poke called from nowhere near here to ensure we were okay.

My heart and thoughts of peace go out to those who were hurt and their loved ones and also to the loved ones of those who died.

monday music: for poke

"The Beatles - Happy Birthday"

monday(ish) music: just the moon and you and i

"moonlight dancing.wmv"

Another sleepless night. Only three more after this and then I return to my incredibly slow-paced life.

Back to the stacks I go. G'night all.

screen shopping

I don't enjoy clothes shopping. Not since the days Poke and I used to try on the most horrid clothes we could find; now, that was fun.

However, I was thinking clothes "shopping" online could be kind of fun now that Poke has introduced Pinterest into my life. I still have a problem, though: where to look? What are some fun places to look at clothes here on the interweb? If money wasn't an issue, where would you shop for clothes?

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Also, while I'm at it, just because Gap is a clothing store name that comes to mind, can someone please explain to me why people tend to say "the Gap"? Is there some fun, quirky history that goes with that? I never hear people say, "I got it at the Anthropologie" or "I found this at the Abercrombie and Fitch." (I had to look up the spelling for both of those stores.) (I've been into an Abercrombie and Fitch once and it was weird and dark with rave-y music and it smelled like too much cologne. Why?)

sigh of relief followed by a deep breath

Ah, so I've made it through the week. It's eight in the evening and I'm not working and I'm not sleeping (or staring at a wall, unable to form a coherent thought because I'm so exhausted).

It's been a good week because I've been able to spend time with people I don't often see, but whom I thoroughly enjoy. It's been an informative week because I have reinforced what I want and what I right now know is realistic for us.

I've been incredibly embarrassed because a failing of mine has been made apparent to those I love and who worry about me too much as it is.

I've seriously dreamed of hitting the road and traveling already. (I'm actually working on a version of this, but it's been slow going.)

I've had the same thing for breakfast and for lunch each day for the past five days.

I've made it through the week. Now, a moment of rest before I gear up for the next week.