Sunday, June 6, 2010

'however long i stay'

I was in the grocery store last night when The Cure's "Lovesong" came on. Suddenly, I was back in high school. I was fifteen, hanging out with one of those forced-on-me "friends" (an exchange student who was living with one of my parents' friends...I think). We were staying at one of her friend's houses for the night. The other girl's boyfriend came over to pick us up and drive us to a windy hilltop overlooking the valley. My "friend" and I walked around in the dirt while her friend and her friend's boyfriend "practiced" having sex (this is what they said they were doing) because she was on her period (not, however, because there were two other, uninvolved, people there). We finally went back to the girl's house. I don't remember if there were adults there or not.

I spent the whole night wanting to just go home, resenting that I was expected to entertain this person with whom I had exactly nothing in common. I don't think about this experience much now, but the song triggered the memory. I'm sorry the song is connected to that night, and that short period in my life, for me.

"the cure love song"