putting myself out there

My mind and insides have been churning lately regarding fear and hurt and how to embrace confidence and bravery. Actually, I feel like I've spent a good deal of my life, especially the last decade, contemplating such.

I feel like I have a lot to say on the subject, but I have no idea how to coherently say it.

Anyhow, I only wanted to preface my request with the above.

I have just put myself back out there. Out there in the big scary "out there" where I am exposed to possible rejection, the thought of which makes my chest constrict.

And, my request? If you've got the positive thoughts to spare, please send some my way. Cross your fingers or light a candle or whatever it is you do, if you would. Because I'm attempting to work my way through and past this constant fear and doubt and embrace the work-to-live ideal.

So, positive thoughts, please? I'll be more than happy to return the favor.

Grazie mille.